"Passion is a blatant understatement."

The Oregon volleyball team had a tournament this weekend, and I went to all three matches and hung out with the Insane-O's - a nice change from football games where I'm pretty much restricted to the OMB section. Between the second and third games, kids attending the game get to play musical chairs.

Well, at this morning's game, there weren't a lot of kids, so the Insane-O's filled in...well, they pretty much ARE kids. :)

Introduction

Cam-O waves to the crowd

Getting started.

And dUckbOy's out. Three more.

Yeah!

And...Cam-O falls in the final round to the guy in the black shirt. Oh well.

25 things...

1. I've recently discovered how much fun going for a nice long walk can be. Especially at dusk, or late at night with other people.
2. I occasionally and randomly burst into dance. This is just as likely to happen while walking down the sidewalk as it is in my apartment.
3. I kick ass at pinball. Whoever wants to challenge me, come on over!
4. I love fedoras. They add a touch of class to any outfit.
5. I'm growing more pessimistic about my future every day.
6. I love love love my new apartment.
7. I miss my friends who are at Boise State right now enduring band camp. Especially some of them whom I haven't seen in months.
8. I hate Miley Cyrus. With a passion. She's talentless, she's becoming more and more of a slut every week and her song "Party In The U.S.A." makes my ears bleed.
9. Conversely, I really like a lot of the songs I've heard on the radio lately. They're perfect for long walks and random epic dancing.
10. I think Dave Ramsey is really informative, regardless of what some people might think.
11. I love the bulk food section at Winco. Next time I go I'm going to stock up on snacks.
12. I'm getting more and more into movies than I've ever been in my life. Right now, my movie collection outnumbers Brian's, and I have a list of more that I want to own in the near future.
13. The ambience music at Old Navy is amazing.
14. I have way too many different instruments in my bedroom right now. I should learn to play more of them.
15. I'm slowly and steadily getting better at keyboard.
16. I really wish I could find my niche in the world.
17. I wish cooking didn't intimidate me so much.
18. I miss the dogs. I especially miss Lu, because I haven't seen her in nine months. I'm beginning to wonder if she's even considered our dog anymore. And it makes me sad.
19. That last one made me really depressed all of a sudden.
20. I really wish I could be more comfortable around some people, less comfortable around others and less impulsive in general.
21. At the same time that I'm excited about marching band, I'm also extremely worried. This is going to put me in a potentially difficult position. But I also know that I'm doing what I want to do, and I'm not going to let my past keep me from doing that.
22. I don't get why people are so shocked that I hate pet names. I like my name, so let's use it.
23. I have the moral values of a 1950s housewife, but the openmindedness of a 1960s flower child. This can annoy a lot of people. I don't really care.
24. There are certain areas of my life where I feel equally sure of myself and completely confused. As a result, I spend a lot of time frustrated because I don't know what to do.
25. I want love. True, unfailing love. And my friends are all confident that I'll find it. I want to believe them. But it's so difficult.

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bored at PCC

What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling them how you feel, or looking into someone’s eyes when they are telling you how they feel?

Looking into someone's eyes in general is really difficult. But to answer the question, probably looking into someone's eyes when they are telling you how they feel.

Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?

I was really angry last spring when my friends abandoned me for no explainable reason. And I'm not mad at most of them anymore.

You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago nonstop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?

Probably my parents, to say that I love them.

You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?

I'd let some people know, but I wouldn't just tell everyone; there are some people who don't need to know or wouldn't care, and I hate having tons of attention drawn to me/people making a huge deal about me. I'd probably do all sorts of crazy stuff that I've never done before, and I would probably be a little afraid, just because death is a scary thought.

You can have one of the following two things: Love or Trust. Which do you choose? Why?

Trust. Love seems to naturally follow.

You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dog’s life?

Of course. Any boss who wouldn't respect kindness and compassion is someone I wouldn't want to work for in the first place. Plus, there's nothing in that question that says that I will definitely be late for work... :)

You are unfaithful to your spouse/significant other. Do you tell him/her? Why or Why not?

First off, this would never happen to me, because I'm picky enough to choose to be in a relationship with someone I can devote the rest of my life to. However, honesty is always the best policy in any relationship, and your partner would probably rather find out from you than through the grapevine.

Your friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more then just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you do/say?

OH SNAP!

Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?

Sometimes.

Does love = sex?

Sex is a very important part of certain types of relationships, and once you're completely commited to someone (aka after marriage) it's an important part of showing your devotion to your partner. However, there are many types of love that people have for various other relationships (i.e. friendships, parent-child, pets, etc.) that shouldn't involve sex.

When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?

Probably mediation with Alitia.

What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a friend, you love them or that you do not love them back?

That I don't love them back.

What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?

I think it would be incredibly hard for me to give up all contact with other people. I've experienced isolation before, and it's more painful that almost anything else one can imagine.

Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them? Who were they to you?

Probably Mom, at some point today.

Imagine: it is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you?

A big tough guy with a mask.

Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?

Yeah (assuming I can relearn CPR before the opportunity presents itself), because everyone deserves lifesaving effort if it's available.

You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your reason for making the decision?

First off, this question is messed up. But I'd probably save the grandmother.

Are you old fashioned?

In some ways, yes.

When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?

Yesterday.

Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?

Having never loved at all. It's a lot less painful.

If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?

I wish someone would recognize my true potential, and that that someone wouldn't be a creeper.

The countdown begins...

In three days Brian and I will start the process of moving back down to Eugene for the school year. Although marching band is still a little more than a month away, and school doesn't start for another two weeks after that, we're moving into our apartment this weekend because the management couldn't reserve our apartment past this Friday.

The epic moving adventure starts Friday morning, when we will go down to Eugene to sign the lease and move as many boxes as we can into the apartment. It will continue Saturday when we rent a moving truck from Tigard and run all over Newberg picking up furniture and boxes from various locations, then make the hour-and-a-half-long trek down to Eugene to move everything into the apartment, then return the truck. Woohoo.

More to follow, including pictures of the new apartment!